Please forgive my neglect in writing. I did not realize that it had been since December since I last wrote and so many things have happened to me to keep track of.
God is such an awesome God and Father to us His children. His love for us is so deep and so wide and it is constant. It does not go away it only goes deeper.
I am learning so much. God has also asked me to give up some things. His love and concern and His passion and wanting me to learn that as a called and chosen person that the enemy fears and wants nothing more to destroy and he will do it anyway he can. He is teaching me that it is very important for me to be a woman of highest integrity. While I have struggled with the full weight of what He has asked me to give up, God has shown me that He has protected me and that I need to trust Him and His voice and His leading for my life. He asked me to give up these things so that I can honor Him and spend time with Him. It was a struggle but when I did finally laid down the tempter made them come back to life. When they came back to life I realized very easily why God wanted me to give it up. I do love spending more time with my Father, learning and being trained in His ways. So I know now that 100% they are laid down not to get back up again.
His discipline is for my transformation. His training me isn’t just for my life here on earth but it is also for my life in heaven with Him and walking in purity and wholeness and holiness so that when I bow before the King I am completely and 100% fully transformed and as the lifter of my head I gave God permission to do what He saw fit. So when He disciplines me it is for my own good. It is not punishment (as I once thought of it that way) but His discipline is in fact based purely on love. Jesus says If your children came to you for bread would you give them a rock? So much more the love God has for you His children. He wants me to be ready for the things here on earth but also the things there in the age to come.
So now I am able to read His word for me, hear Him whisper a name to pray for them, or hear Him whisper a name to call them and encourage or email and encourage. It is for Kingdom glory that I am able to say not my will but take this Father and show me what You desire.
He will say “well done my daughter” and to each of us who are sons and daughters of the Father He loves us His children and so He will discipline us and cause us to be transformed.