So it has been a while since I have written. Guess its time to write. Things have been really going busy. I started school on Sept. 17th. There is so much to say… I have learned so much in such a short period of time. Here is the highlights of at least the last 2 weeks. It has been marked with some disappointment, and some growth, and more importantly spiritual learning. When we submit to God we come out the other side all different than when we began. So here is a glimpse of the last 2 weeks in school for me and some of the things I have learned.
1. Everything that God created me to be is already inside of me; I can get nothing more for what God wants me to be outside of God. Redemption on some level is discovering who I am in Christ. And since sin and pain are part of my life I have to go back with Christ and unravel that and restart with who God made me to be…. This for me was a major wow… I had never heard that before and have spent a lifetime searching for who I am (both with or at some point without Christ) through all kinds of means.. SO, now the idea of who I am can properly be defined as I unravel the hidden treasure inside of me.
2. The love relationship between Father and Son and Son and Father went on eons before the Father decided to share this love relationship with all of creation. Before I knew that I needed God He already knew and adopted me into His family and He is pleased just at the thought of it. (again this is a very powerful concept for me to even grasp).
3. We were never created to know the difference between good and evil we were created to be in relationship with God. While I knew this on some level it impacted me on a much deeper level. Over the last few months I have been craving getting to know Father. It is really like a major craving for me. So, when I heard this it impacted me because it is about knowing God
4. “God took the wrath of Himself upon Himself so that we could experience Freedom.” For me this impact is much more real than just “Jesus died on the cross for my sins because He loves me”
So these are just a few of the highlights of the last 2 weeks of school…
Yet probably the most exciting the most personal and happiest moment for me was that a few of the people in my class made it known that I am to be shared with everyone… that the people who have sat next to me since class 1 can not just “hog me” they have to share. People actually wanting to sit next to me… I can not even begin to tell you what that made me feel like (I did have to leave though and cry but they were tears of joy and being wanted). I mean to be wanted in such a way really gave me such a feeling that well I still can not put it into words but I will say that it really truly made me feel amazingly wonderful. So, for my part next week am going to sit in the middle so I can be equally shared. (Please pray for that because as I shared when I like the end (and some of that is because I suffer from restless legs and severe muscle spasms and it is easier to get up when I am on the end) but as I also shared God is working in that area as well.
So, I can only say this, when God begins a work in someone He does not finish til He is done. God is not done with me yet!!!
Philippians 1:6 “Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ”