The road back from Insanity to healing

So it has been roughly 1 month since my 6 week journey of what I thought was insanity and healing ended. It lasted from Oct.31-Dec. 15. I was asked to go back an look at my emails, journal notes, and anything else I wrote (texts, blogs).. You know I found out that I was not insane but in fact very closely bordered with God. I was being hemmed in and because I was acting in obedience it was a strong feeling of insanity. But God well God was with me every step of the way. He was there when my bed shook, He was there when I had the thoughts, He was there when I wanted to run, and He was there when I was crying cause I did not know what to do and  He was there when I ran into His arms! God’s so amazing to us His children. He walks beside us every step (even if it is a wrong step).

Last night (Jan. 16th) I participated in a healing prayer session as the co-pray-er. (all I did was pray that God would show up and work in this persons life, and show this person things that were going to be needed for healing. And that God would heal this person and bring new Kingdom life).  YES it was the 1st time that I had ever sat on that side of the prayer. But it was also healing for me in many ways. I think I need to share that with not just you but also with the lady who asked me to sit in and be the pray-er  (which is the same lady that walked me through my journey of 6 weeks.). And just like when I went through it we did the group that I lead immediately following.  But God was faithful even then because He had me completely hemmed in and protected.

As I was driving home last night and again today, I became keenly aware of what God was up to. He was being Dad and making sure I got back on the bike after falling off (even though I did not fall off the bike on my own I was kicked off) but God was showing me that He is far from done using me for His kingdom.

I am grateful that the person who walked with me through my time asked me to be the pray-er because she knew that God was ready for me to get back on the bike.

So, I am on the bike again. Last night was not easy and the enemy was attacking at the door for the day before and on the day he tried to trap me with a major migraine. I knew that at 12:30 when it struck exactly what it was and I also knew that I could not take anything cause I would not even be able to drive to meet the folks at 5:30.

So, tonight as I was looking at some things on the internet the Lord told me to read Psalm 107 in 3 versions. I read the Voice, message, and New living and I was Wowed by God… When I say wowed God just showed me clearly that HE will settle the storms, I am to continue sharing my life and that He is the one that sets the captives free. So, check out Psalms 107

Psalm 107
The Message (MSG)
107 1-3 Oh, thank God—he’s so good!
His love never runs out.
All of you set free by God, tell the world!
Tell how he freed you from oppression,
Then rounded you up from all over the place,
from the four winds, from the seven seas.
Some of you wandered for years in the desert,
looking but not finding a good place to live,
Half-starved and parched with thirst,
staggering and stumbling, on the brink of exhaustion.
Then, in your desperate condition, you called out to God.
He got you out in the nick of time;
He put your feet on a wonderful road
that took you straight to a good place to live.
So thank God for his marvelous love,
for his miracle mercy to the children he loves.
He poured great draughts of water down parched throats;
the starved and hungry got plenty to eat.
Some of you were locked in a dark cell,
cruelly confined behind bars,
Punished for defying God’s Word,
for turning your back on the High God’s counsel—
A hard sentence, and your hearts so heavy,
and not a soul in sight to help.
Then you called out to God in your desperate condition;
he got you out in the nick of time.
He led you out of your dark, dark cell,
broke open the jail and led you out.
So thank God for his marvelous love,
for his miracle mercy to the children he loves;
He shattered the heavy jailhouse doors,
he snapped the prison bars like matchsticks!
Some of you were sick because you’d lived a bad life,
your bodies feeling the effects of your sin;
You couldn’t stand the sight of food,
so miserable you thought you’d be better off dead.
Then you called out to God in your desperate condition;
he got you out in the nick of time.
He spoke the word that healed you,
that pulled you back from the brink of death.
So thank God for his marvelous love,
for his miracle mercy to the children he loves;
Offer thanksgiving sacrifices,
tell the world what he’s done—sing it out!
Some of you set sail in big ships;
you put to sea to do business in faraway ports.
Out at sea you saw God in action,
saw his breathtaking ways with the ocean:
With a word he called up the wind—
an ocean storm, towering waves!
You shot high in the sky, then the bottom dropped out;
your hearts were stuck in your throats.
You were spun like a top, you reeled like a drunk,
you didn’t know which end was up.
Then you called out to God in your desperate condition;
he got you out in the nick of time.
He quieted the wind down to a whisper,
put a muzzle on all the big waves.
And you were so glad when the storm died down,
and he led you safely back to harbor.
So thank God for his marvelous love,
for his miracle mercy to the children he loves.
Lift high your praises when the people assemble,
shout Hallelujah when the elders meet!
God turned rivers into wasteland,
springs of water into sunbaked mud;
Luscious orchards became alkali flats
because of the evil of the people who lived there.
Then he changed wasteland into fresh pools of water,
arid earth into springs of water,
Brought in the hungry and settled them there;
they moved in—what a great place to live!
They sowed the fields, they planted vineyards,
they reaped a bountiful harvest.
He blessed them and they prospered greatly;
their herds of cattle never decreased.
But abuse and evil and trouble declined
as he heaped scorn on princes and sent them away.
He gave the poor a safe place to live,
treated their clans like well-cared-for sheep.
Good people see this and are glad;
bad people are speechless, stopped in their tracks.
If you are really wise, you’ll think this over—
it’s time you appreciated God’s deep love.

So, for tonight I will just praise God for making it perfectly clear that I am wowed by God and that His love for me will calm all the storms…

He gives me Joy… He gives me joy… He gives me joy…

Be blessed my friends…

About leftnfree

I am a flawed Christian who loves Jesus more than anything. Originally from the east coast of the US (Philadelphia, Pa). Currently living in Az. I am a single female who has no children. I do have a bunch of nieces and nephews. I do love to dance, swim, sing, travel, and play. I love dogs and am allergic to cats an sulfa. I don't drink or do street drugs or abuse prescription drugs. I love the USA and am ashamed of some of the folks that are running the show in DC (both parties). Personally, I don't think that our founding fathers intended for the service of our members of congress was supposed to be a life long job. I think that they meant for it to be short term. I love all kinds of movies but classics are becoming my favorite more and more. I do not like much of what is on television today because the world of make believe "reality tv" is unreal, and the rest well I just don't like the animation programs either. I love Jesus and try to serve Him with all I am becoming more an more like Him daily. I may stumble and I may make a mistake but I can always count on the loving arms of my Jesus and my Heavenly Father to come pick me up again and help me stand. I am not afraid of trying or failing but I am afraid of bragging and doing it on my own. I try to love all people and help all people (sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't). But even in that God is my all an all. That is who I am. Nothing more and nothing less. What you see is what you get. Like I said at the beginning I am flawed. I am human, and while I am not sinless I am able to sin less and help others to learn how to sin less. God is good. I hope that you enjoy reading the things that I write.
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